So I didn’t get the sushi job. Which is unfortunate, as I was rather excited about the opportunity and felt like the interview went really well. Like, I felt like I proved my skills, that I interacted well with the guy I talked to as well as with a few people at the bar, I asked pointed questions, and just felt pretty comfortable and confidant with the way things went. But no go. It’s gotten to the point where I feel like I have no gauge at all in recognizing when a job interview has gone well and when it hasn’t. And I know that a lot of it is simply if I’m the most qualified person for the job, and that due to the economic climate, there are quite a lot of qualified people out there that are interested in the same positions that I am also interested in. But psychologically I still want to assume that it’s something that I’m doing that’s keeping me from getting these positions. I guess I feel that if it’s my fault that I’m not getting anywhere, that it’s also within my control to make the next time actually successful. I think I feel better with the idea that I’m simply not trying hard enough, rather then thinking about how I’m just another face in that sea of faces clawing on top of each other for that rare and elusive open position.
In any case, I should be grateful for what I do have. I’ve got a freelance job, which is good. And while it is a finite position, it will be another site on my resume to show potential employers. That, and I’ll feel much more confidant regarding Drupal, so hopefully that will help propel me onward.